Roller coaster

Training for a marathon is turning out to be an emotional roller coaster. I wonder if it would feel the same if I were preparing under different circumstances, but one day I'll feel it is possible and the next I'm not sure if I'll make it to the start line let alone the finish.

Remember how I was anxiously waiting to see a sports physio? Well she was fantastic and very supportive of my continued training. I'm focusing on stretching and building stability while continuing to train as usual.

This led to a 12 mile run this weekend. I was silly excited, but I had done as the physio instructed and was feeling positive.  All went well until the last two miles when I had to really cheer myself on to make it through.

This left me really worried that my level of fitness is not quite ready for this challenge. And then the next morning I was very, very uncomfortable. Not tight in my hip, but pain engulfing my back and pelvis. I had to sit through a training seminar all day and by the end it felt like I was 40 weeks pregnant, the pain in my pelvis was so bad.

My daughter had a rough night (teething), so I hit the alarm at 4:45, but when I did get out of bed, my pelvis was fine. I managed to complete my 40 min run without any pain. Yesterday I thought I was going to have to throw in the towel scared that every increase in mileage would cripple me. 

I'm amazed at how my body has adapted. I'll need to keep these positive thoughts in mind when the roller coaster reaches it's next dip.

Waiting

I'm sitting, waiting to see a sports Physio and feeling incredibly anxious. My mind keeps thinking that this is it. I'm out. Right now 10 miles seems to be my max. I can't run a 10 mile marathon. 

But I have to remind myself that I'm not injured. My hip is tight, but I don't have any sharp pain. I'm doing this to prevent an injury. 

Everyone on the Mind marathon forum swears by physios. That they have helped them to complete the marathon against all odds. 

I wonder if I'm being ridiculous. Why did I agree to run this marathon when I knew my body wasn't ready?

I guess only time will tell. Here's hoping the Physio is optimistic and has lots of supportive advice. 

Free February

A friend of mine is trying to get pregnant. Because she's been trying for 6 months, she sought advice to see if she could be doing anything differently and was advised that eating too much sugar could  have an impact on her hormone levels.

We all know about sugar highs and lows. I'm very well acquainted with the sugar coma and subsequent hangover feeling from eating too much. Sometimes I eat so much that I feel like I'm walking around in a fog. You'd think I'd learn!

So this got me thinking about my own consumption. Since I weaned my daughter just before Christmas, my sugar intake has skyrocketed. My daughter has multiple food allergies, so I was off of cakes and such while breast feeding. Now, however, it's basically no holds barred and it's not pretty.

A consequence of this, I think, is an increase in my mood swings. So when I heard my friend talking about sugar effecting your hormone levels, I decided I was going to cut down, too.

Today starts day one of no sweets, chocolate, cakes, or soda. Yesterday was my daughter's first birthday, so I let that one slide. Here's to a successful first day. I'm sure I'll have much more to say about this in a few days!